got extremely agitated today while in mum's car. i dont know how but she can get me really heated up. managed to hold in my anger though... but i felt like i was gna explode so i went off without informing mum or jenni to take a short walk. i guess it made them really angry but janandi resolved it in a matter of minutes... pretty proud of us, lolll. it was matured :) gta thank the short walk i took too. it's amazing how my anger can dissipate in mere moments.

anyway, the issue was on life... i never believe in playing with such matters. alrgt, thats all i shld say lest any complications arise...i'm not supposed to talk abt it =/ :(

i've not prayed in a long while, and i dno if i will...but i shld consider doing so... desperation calls for desperate measures, calls for the returning to one's roots-where stability resides.

anyhow, i intended this week to be a total break from studying, trng etc... but i'm needed at dad's office amap (aka as long as i;ve no school) ... and this will be a pretty permanent thing for the near future... ok i'm stumped. dont know what to think abt this...

on another note, my last competitive race ended over the wkend (which wasn't really competitive per say since intensity wasn't as high) so technically i can stop trng. but my swan trng is delayed cos i agreed to a race in oct. so alrgt, i guess i'll delay the 'shld i cont trng or not' decision. but i will face it eventually... am alr struggling with it for aquathlon's swim trngs... this. is going. too fast.....

ahhh, buo la....

Dont we look damn cute there -.- hahaaaa.