Why start something you have no intention of finishing?

if you're one of the people at natalie's house, you'll probably know i got that quote frm the book i'm reading now, True Believer(which seems like a christian book to them). or maybe not. those people are too ***** XP. putting relationships on the strain just because of an insignificant third party. PLEASE! ... ;D

but i think it's quite true . TB meant it in the relational way fyi; in that, why get so close to each other when you know that it wont last because you're leaving town?kinda sad. thinking further, i thought abt my crosscountry career.(we had cca leader conference so i was labelled crossrunner .:.recounts of cross exp came back)

ah, it's sad.

so anyway, it's maverick's bday today. HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY MAVIE ;) let me tell you all about this little boy maverick here. maverick leong. wei peng...right? ha ha i dont know lah but the way you say your chinese name is so cute. on to that c word, maverick is now 14yrs old standing, tall and skinny and like a big boy. okay not big boy, but a less small boy. is it irritating for a boy at 14yrs to have 17yr old girls calling you cute? cos that was the first thing i said to him when i saw him today. oh my, like totally. him in his too small shorts, and yellow shirt. maverick looks so cute in his sch u. :P but all cutes and stuff, hes a very understanding boy. matured when need be, saw it so during... publicity for youth sunday this yr. one responsible boy. yet, he can brighten up the lives of people's around him just with the toothy grin of his. his actions to 'With Christ in the vessel we can Smile at the storm' song. awwwww :) and i rmb him em-ceeing with TiffanyAng for finale night last yr. two of them are so cute. my "twin". well, it's been close to two yrs since i met this adorable boy here.and i sang him the birthday song 14 times :) not very eventful lah. i shld have, like, called him at 11.59am and sing the song in 1 min or sth. but it's too late :P okay excuses. whatever heh. i feel blessed knowing maverick :) happy 14th again!

under circumstances, i was counting how many months has it been since thadd left. mentally, i was going "july..august..sept.. oct" .... ," about 3 1/2 mths". and somehow when i was counting, my heart sank, sank real deep. like when you're on the top of a rollar coaster and it falls down to the pits, your heart feels like it's in vacuum or smth.that 'weightlessness' feeling. yeah, that feeling. it s incomprehendable. it was somewhat, scary. lost. you know, suddenly the qns like what am i doing on earth? why is life so fragile? why did he have to go at 17? came. esp since earlier, i saw this lady running all over the streets, presumably looking for a child of hers that has gone missing. aiyah, the accummulation of feelings derived from the two situations stated earlier is a...fearful feeling.