FIRSTLY, i'll address my goodlooking friends:
teoyihui: hahahaha i like the way you put it ;) 'a song that makes you elope right away' wheeep ;p hahaha. teo, that song was made with you in mind pls! "i know when i compliment her, she wont believe me" and "when she smiles, the whole world stops and stares for a while"

caijing, fay: i'd comment the same thing to you two just as to teoyihui (above). but shes pretty AND TALL. the latter, you two fail ah. but nvm. the song applies to you two too except maybe abt the part where he says that the world stops for you cos you two are too short to notice ;) HAHAHAHA. i'm ttly joking. i'm short too. short ppl ftw! brunos ttm!!! high five.

tricia: hello nus girl. are you gng sunig!!

dan: yeah the song will be so sweet if a guy sang it to us right ^^ hehehee (giggles)

OK SO DOWN TO BIZ.

ytd i wanted to post this: 20 TO 20

which means, 20 days to becoming 20! (zzzzzzzzzzzzz)
but i was v tired after trng so i didnt bother to on the komputa.
i decided to commemorate it by giving myself 20 bullet point spaces to say ANYTHING ABT MY LIFE that i want. like really anything. but they are not impt thigns in my life lah. just wtv that comes to mind. so pls dont think that i like you just because i talk abt you here. i think this will be a rather controversial blogpost sooo if any explanation needs to be done, pls ask me and i will clarify. my values and beliefs are still intact- just that words are very subjective, what i say may be interpretated in many different ways. but ultimately, i'm gna die so till then, i wna do this crazy thing. so here goes !

1. when i say a guy is cute, i really mean that he is cute. cute as in , want to squeeze his face and play with it like play dough cute(hahahaa). cute as in , small boy cute. and i think tyler ward is cute(walao that sounds frigging bimbotic :( ). recently tyler ward did a cover with some drummer. AND I THINK HE IS GOODLOOKING. it wasn't an instant thing. it was only aft i noticed how well he played, and then i went to his youtube page and saw him with his specs(http://www.youtube.com/user/deedlebag) that i think hes gdlooking.


that guy there. south african (Y) and i rly admire the stuff he said in the description box of one of the christian songs he played to-about not wanting to impose his views on others etc.

2. ytd night, i talked to russell on the phone for close to 1 hr. about armyhalfmara&abit abt sch etc. this year, or for the past 3years actually, i rmb talking to only 3 pple for more than 30min (thats a random number HAHA). the guy i like (hurhur) , russell and my extremely good/close friend . i feel uncomfortable talking with ppl on the phone cos i fear silence with ppl i'm not close to+tiring to hold phone+i think it's kinda claustrophobic.. the thought that my telephone friend and i are communicating through such thin wires is kinda oppressive and scary ..i rather talk to you in person can? ;)

3. i always dreamed about performing in front of a crowd. i imagined myself having the talent for singing, for playing instruments, for charming and inspiring a crowd .and it always put me in a damn good yet bad feeling. good cos it's like-i'm finally living my dream. bad cos i know it will nvr happen

4. i really hate people that are unfaithful. in this case, to their girl/boyfs, husband wife etc..( but i guess in relation to other stuff to such as things they commited themselves to etc. ) and for that reason, i've distant myself from a few ppl in my life

5. i lost a very good friend this year cos of my lifestyle (heck care etc) .i smsed her recently but she didnt reply me..and i'm still rather upset abt it.. my parents were quite surprised when i told them abt us falling out. the thing is, if my parents can even hv such a rxn, it shows the bigness of it.cos even they know i dont have many gdfrenz. i'm sure she knows that too .the worst thing is that i dno what to do to make it up to her ,because i cant even promise myself tt i'll change for her.. arghh

6. i've a guy friend i knew since sec3. even though we aren't close at all now, he has a great impact on my life. HAHA-and he doesnt know it. DUH. cos i wont tell him: 1) i had a slight crush on him in sec4 2) he caused me to fall out with a friend.

7. there are many instances , i'm sure, that i associate with God's goodness and as His way of 'speaking to me' . (omg my eng is so bad harhar) but the most striking cases are when my buses come straight after i reach the busstop; as in i dont need to wait for my bus lah. super grateful whenever it happens. hahahha. maybe also cos i'm always late and rushing.

8. thanks to yl and jes for making me think so hard in sec4 :what i like abt guys . cos the only thing prody that came out of it and that i still rmb till now is that i like guys who are passionate about what they do.

9. contrary to others(shy when they first meet pple ;then slowly warm up to others and open up), i think that i'm very friendly with people when i first meet them. but after a while, i grow quieter and keep to myself.

10. i've considered one million times to kill myself ,or at least to paralyse myself badly, so thatppl ard me will notice me,esp my parents, and they wont care so much abt their probs

11. after crying when i think abt how much hurt and distraught i'd cause my family and ahma and friends(10.) , my next immediate thought is (in regards to paralysing myself) : damn. i wont be able to run.

12. when i was young, i fantasised about marrying a man who can play the guitar and will play for us after dinner. hahaha

(I'M ACTLY VERY SICK OF THIS ALR. SINCE 5. I GOT HEADACHE FROM STARING AT THE COMP FOR SO LONG AND THINKING SO MUCH ZZ LAWL)

13. i think i have a talent for listening to others (rant), but it's highly under utilised

14. i admire rachelng's graceloke's u. elvin's(^^ .. wa pls, i really hope nobody related sees this, it's really nth i promise. it's just for comic relief. i wrote his name out of the rest cos i like the name elvin!!) family. lasttime, i asked G why cant i have a family like the foremost.

15. i LOVEEEE shopping for station-e/a-ry

16. i cry silently everytime i need to dress up for a formal event. because i dno how to dress up, do my hair or even put basic make up on. haha but mostly cos my friends have their mothers to discuss tgt what to wear, to help them put their make up on, to do their hair and to talk&gush abt the event tgt.

17. gna run half marathon on sunday! first time soooo.... i dno whether to make my debut a shitty fun one or a whack,do my best, one. heh.

18. ah-ha! got it. i'm an extreme person. either i will go all out for something, or give up. but i've been living my life by "going with the flow" which i dont like. that's why maybe i'm so sian now lolz

19. i thought abt working in a prison early this year cos i wna change lives. cos in prison, expectations are not as high on you. cos , these ppl need a lot of love. i dont have a slightest clue of where i wna go after i grad so for me, the future really is black-i dno if it'll be good or bad. but i jst hope i wont meet anymore bastards ahead :P hahah

20. you've been at the back of my head throughout this but i dno how to say what i dno to say. HAHA its so confusing oops

ok done. YAY. now gta chiong bathe and change for susu's army dinner at VIVO MARCHE. zz hoep i wont be late . he said 'you promise me you will be early ah!' hahaha. anyway FANTASTIC VOICE DOWN THERE:



19days of teenage dreams . i dont even know the lyrics of this song.but i like the way he does it