trng ytd was kinda whoo mad. haha. =/ coach talk after that... and he was asking me if i was demoralised from sunig... "you've trained so hard yet you didnt do well. do you feel very demoralised?" which is exactly what i felt. haha cos i nvr trained so hard =/ or ran so much for that matter..

he kept saying that i must BE CONFIDENT of myself and my abilities. and if i dont, i will just keep gng down cos i'm so negative and once i hit the bottom, i'll go to him and say 'coach thats it man. i cant do it alr. sorry' when in fact, yes i can do it..

but what struck me the most was that ,all my other coaches told me too to be confident.. am i not confident enough? i'm really so tired alr what confidence is there to display to propel me forward...

i dno... i really dont... :( sorry dear. but yeah, now that coach has made me aware of what may happen to me (which actually has been replaying in my mind for quite a while now =x) , i must NOT ditch you !! before everything else, running was my first love. i really did it SINCE YOUNG manz even tho i only started in sec sch.. lawlz.

i keep waking up so late :( zzz. i think i'll go sch tmr early too to print heck lot of notes. har har.. the enrolment talk had better be good and worth my time >:(

haaiiiiiiiiiyaaaaaaah... bad things aside from ytd (and weird lol. thanks jan) , i heard marshall's goodnight song to lily!! it was superrrrr hilarious. mark and i kept laughinggg ttm #@(*#@)(! which made joyce super ?!?!HUH?!?!?!lolll cos she was sitting across us hahahahhaha. and it was of even more extreme-r funnyness to me cos a past memory haha :).. himym (pronounced as hi-mum) is superrrrr funny omg :')

one hour a day for Him .tt's rly quite....little still. lol. being spiritual in a secular world is really tough. stupid devil.

anw fang is gna do prayer stuff for youthp camp! aww ^^