I miss :
The wanted... They were so whacky and full of f it rly jst reminds me tt life doesnt need to be THAT serious.. Im young and shld be allowed to do whatever stuff i want no matter how dumb.. And tt i rly dont need to give a shit abt what judgement may me passed agnst me. In fact the more the btr, cos tt means im rly living life exactly how i want, however agnst the norm it is! ^^ i used to go out w a guy like tt who rly helped me to loosen up alot. I always believed tt in every rship you have w ppl, youd always take sth frm them. Frm him, its tt tt. I rmb being so open in tt, i was a lot more open and confident and like..id chat up w random aunties and uncles and try to make them smile and feel tt lil bit less sian abt life. (lesson 2 was tt when im w others, i shld keep my phone away ahha! Ok bt tt has no relevance) i wish i exuded tt openness and heck care, carefreeness !

I miss sissy too whos at camp.. I miss some man at msia..i dont even knw why i do, but he called and yeah...AT LEAST HE BOTHERED T CALL hha plus pt..yeah wtv. Anw tt guy at msia is my dad, jst t clarify lol. And i miss..an..old friend. I dno if she still comes here..but um on e assumption tt she doesnt, tks for the msges.. And not scolding me.. I was completely taken aback by her sms, yet v happy of cos. A lot of memories flooded aft e msg. And .i thought abt wht cld have been of us now.. Yeah..haha i know its only a thought bcos of me but .it pained my heart tt its nt a reality and jst sth i had t fantasise(correct usage of word not ah? Hahah) but, i rly dont wna just think abt "what cld have beens" anymore... I still wna accompany you down the aisle and hold your dress..and even if we dont reach tt closeness anymore.. I wna be at least present in the impt phases in your life. I see my mum and her estranged rships w her girlfs and it rly sucks!!:/ yea haha verbal vomit.. but my consolation is tt at least im noting these thoughts down tt prob wont surface for the next few mths min.. And writing in a diary takes hrs so..nah. Haha ok gdngt tivz. Gna wake up early and do solid studying before church!:)

LIKE A BOSS HAHA