For years ive been in the pursuit of knowing God's plan for me.. Knowing my purpose in life.. Finding out what God has installed for my life and what im meant to do/live for. It had gotten to the point where i was so desperate to know tht not possessing such knowledge broke me down and caused me to toss it away.

I was reading an article tdy abt The origins of humans (updated tdy) and was reminded of a segment of my 'heavy' conversation ytd w the lady. She mentioned tht a couple went to her house one day and told each indiv member of her family their indiv purpose in life. It was thrilling just putting myself into her shoes and thinking tht "omg. I KNOW my purpose in life. I know why God created me".

But this morning, i was struck with a qn : what wld i do if i knew my purpose in life? How wld my lifestyle change?

Then it occurred to me that maybe God hasnt told me my purpose in life all these years because : im not ready to know it.